MERRY CHRISTMAS 2010…. But I don’t feel like it
Christmas is just round the corner but I don’t look forward to it. In fact I never look forward to Christmas (I think it’s because I never grew up in a Christian household) but that doesn’t mean I am not a good Christian. Every year during Christmas I was reminded of Christ’s birth and rejoice and be thankful for all the things that HE has provided for me and my family. But strangely, every Christmas, I never felt any excitement and in fact I felt alone even though I have many friends who celebrate this wonderful occasion with me. Don’t get me wrong, Christ’s birth is a celebration but what I meant was I don’t feel like going to church just to sing some songs, listen to good message and then exchanging gifts. I feel there is so much more than all these. Well, maybe I need to do something about it starting this Christmas. I do not know what, but I think I should think of something and make it meaningful and purposeful (that’s my goal in life starting this year) that benefits the people around me instead of just looking at myself.
PS: While I was blogging on this entrée, I was reminded of last year’s Christmas where I spent with WY and GL. How the time flies. I was feeling exactly how I described above and yet God was so kind to me that He brought WY to me at that moment. Many of my close friends from church at that time were busy with the celebration but I just wanted to spend it with one or two close friends so I was actually feeling a bit depressed and troubled while being surrounded with so many people. Well, the Lord knows my heart and He gave WY to me and I had a wonderful time with her and GL.
You’re not alone in your sense of frustration with the Christmas holiday.
I was talking with my pastor today and he reminded me of something— the whole message Christmas is that God reached out to humanity. I.e., it’s about others…..
While this note is a year later than your post on this, if you still feel the same– you are not alone….